For Andrew
Dear Andrew, I saw this and thought of you. Turn the volume up and watch her crash into the pole. xo,G. Continue reading For Andrew
Category: finding happy
My Russian American Dichotomy
I was a Russian girl and an American teenager. I had no choice about the first but I tried very hard to be the second. Now as a grown woman, I mostly deem myself a New Yorker. While I never truly considered myself an American, being a New Yorker encompasses more. New York has a special tolerance for Russians. My immigrant story begins when I … Continue reading My Russian American Dichotomy
Mothering
I had many expectations and fears before I had a child. I was afraid of health issues. I was afraid that he wouldn’t be cute. I was afraid I wouldn’t love him enough. None of those fears came to fruition. Instead my body and mind became overwrought with how to feed and put this baby to sleep. Babies are about feeding and sleeping and somehow … Continue reading Mothering
Master Your Fear
Anthony Robbins speaks about staying positive in tough times this morning on the Today Show. I think this is a really good way of looking at life right now. Sending positive energy out into the world. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22425001/vp/27159902#27159902 Continue reading Master Your Fear
Speaking My Unspoken Thank Yous
“SURGERY,” I had written in bold red letters on the calendar square for January 30, 2008. I scheduled my thyroid surgery for early in the year thinking I would supply the remaining 11 months with healing ammunition. Eight is my favorite number and this was going to be MY YEAR. At that point, I couldn’t see the flaws in my logic anymore than I could … Continue reading Speaking My Unspoken Thank Yous
My Body Through My Eyes
Last month I turned 34 and vowed to be a little kinder to my body. I want to give it more respect, to stop judging it so harshly, to discontinue defining it by society’s standards. I resolve to love my body for what it is, rather than continue to hate it for what it will never be. I’ve got a mane of thick curly hair, … Continue reading My Body Through My Eyes
Job Hunting 2008
I arrive at the crossroad of desperate lost souls and hopeful promises. I sign in at the marble lobby with the overly friendly receptionist in a tight skirt and frizzy ponytail. A clipboard, akin to a doctor’s office, holds the names and the arrival times of us job seekers. A man uses the tactic of innocent flirtation with the receptionist. He jokes mindlessly about the … Continue reading Job Hunting 2008
Take a breath. It will all work out.
Life has taught me that expectations are guaranteed assurance for disappointment. I have spent countless hours of my life predicting and preparing for situations, many of which never arrive. I look for exits in unfamiliar locales and questionable strangers have my eyes darting in all directions. I’ve prepared dozens of scenarios for every late night phone call from every possible area code. And why? The … Continue reading Take a breath. It will all work out.
eHarmony falls flat
My best friend Sophie had a very Sex and the City-worthy week of dating in New York. She got broken up with on a text message, took home a busboy from work in a broken hearted shameful moment, and then drunk-dialed her ex-boyfriend from college. The next morning she calls me swearing off men again. So I suggest an alternative. “How about crossing your sex … Continue reading eHarmony falls flat
Bitch*
Getting fired last month was the best thing that had happened to me all year. I mean don’t get me wrong. For the first two hours after that bitch∗ terminated me I sobbed with my whole body. Heaving up and down, I could barely utter a word. My dad, my boyfriend and my assistant bore the brunt of my hysteria. They reassured me that this … Continue reading Bitch*
Writing it down
Lately I’ve developed a compulsion to write everything down. Stringing words together and composing sentences in the shower, I want to write it all down – remember it – capture it. I stare at people in the subway and craft their character descriptions in my head… Divorced, single mom but doing well. She went back to school for medical lab technologists – did the 10 … Continue reading Writing it down
Hello world!
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About Me … Once Upon a Time
I put off writing the ABOUT ME section of my blog for a long time. Partly because the Me changes so often. Partly because I don’t know how to stop once I start writing (especially about Moi). I tried to write a bio-type blurb and 5 pages of narcissistic crap came out. So I started a memoir. In the meantime I feel like I owe … Continue reading About Me … Once Upon a Time
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